KiReIi

2011-05-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

I am so happy that I can go on a cruise with my dear dear! :):):) I wanna return his mum the money but he just won't let me :(:(:( What shld I do? Shld I return or not? Zzzzz Don't care, I must return... Or else I will feel super duper bad... Deficit then deficit, money can be earned again but I really don feel good that his mum is paying for me :(

But I'm super looking forward to this trip!!! It's my first overseas trip with my dear boy and it won't be the last!!! There will be more to come!!! I love my dear boy so much!!! <3 I wanna take lots and lots of photos with him!!! I wanna enjoy every single millisecond with him!!! I wanna enjoy those food with him too!!! Omg I'm just so excited!!! 27 May!!! I'm so looking forward to that day and the subsequent 3 days!!! Hehehe! xD

Hong Zu Yao Wo Ai Ni!!! <3

2011-04-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

I asked you how do you guage when u park a car. You keep telling me to estimate, estimate and estimate. Then when I park like shit, u laugh at me. Fuck, what is this? You think it feels good? I'm trying to learn here and u dig on me. I bet u felt good ya. Fuck it. I hate this. I don't wanna cry anymore. I must be strong. I've had enough of crying when my bf scolded me like shit for small mistakes I made when I answer econs questions. I must change. I must grow up and learn from my mistakes and not cry over it. I will find a way out and PROVE to everyone that I can do it too. I've really had enough of you spitting sacarsms at me.

2011-04-17T03:07:00.003+08:00

Here I am again finding another platform to release my sadness... First of all, I am a bastard. I don't think from other people's point of view. I don't stand in other people's shoes and think for them. I suck. I really suck at being a good girlfriend. I must learn. I must learn how to think mature. I must start to think from other's point of view. Esp my dear dear. I have been a bad girlfriend to him. I love him so I should do all these for him. I am selfish! I have to change! Change the way I think! Starting from today onwards, I will think from other people's point of view! I'm really sorry my dear. I can only say sorry to you here. Cos I know you don't want to hear me say sorry. I'm really sorry. You don't know how scared I was just now when you told me you need some love. You sounded as though you doubted my love for you. I was really scared that you would leave me. I already know that you are important to me but I didn't do enough to show you that you are important to me. I don't ever want you to leave me. Never ever! I must change! For the sake of my dear dear, I must change and learn! I really want to walk the isle down with you. And entrusting the rest of my life to you. And most importantly, be the woman behind your back to support you, until you die. I really love you. I will change for you cos I love you. I hope you don't doubt my love for you and pls give me a chance and some time to learn to be a better girlfriend. To be honest, I want you to see this post. But I will not let you see this. Never. After today, I will change for the better. I will remember your words. I WILL START TO THINK FROM YOUR POINT OF VIEW AND LET YOU TANK LESS OR BEST, NO DAMAGE. You are really the best boyfriend. I must treasure you! I love you. That is really from the bottom of my heart.

2011-03-10T02:15:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

It's been a long long time since I posted. Today, I just wanna find a platform to release my unhappiness. I made my dear boy angry today. I cried for like 1 whole hr. That has been the most hurting moment I ever felt. My heart literally ached. It was really really painful. For the first time, he send me a message that he wouldn't usually send. A very formal message, "Yes. Going to bed now. Nights." Of cos, I deleted that. Cos everything about him should be happy moments. I already expected him to reply this kind of message. But I just can't control my emotions. The moment I read his message, tears were flowing from my eyes like tap water running. After crying, I felt giddy and very cold. For my whole life in 19 years, I never cried this much and never ever ever cried with so much sadness. I really don't want such things to happen again. But from this incident, I can see that I really love my dear boy so much that I'm so afraid of losing him. And I'm really glad that he replied my message so that I know he is safe :)

Hui Tien, you've got to solve this problem tmr. Apologise to him and tell him you're wrong. Tell him that you know where you went wrong and how you will change. Muster up your courage and do what you're suppose to do. Don't care if you cry like crazy tmr. Just do it. I know I can do it and I will make my dear boy happy again. I'm sorry my dearest Zu Yao. I'm really sorry. I really hope you can see what I've typed here but I know this won't happen. It's alright, I will and can tank all of these damage. Oh and really a big thanks to Gifford who lend me a listening ear when I really need one. Really thank you. And thank Buddha for arranging Gifford to ask me what happened. Thank you Buddha.

I guess I won't be able to sleep well tonight. But it's okay. That will be my punishment for what I had cause my dear boy. Even if my dear boy doesn't forgive me tmr, I'll just tank it and say sorry. Repeat everything again and again. If that doesn't work then I'll just leave him for the time being and think about other ways to make him forgive me. I'm really sorry my dear boy. You don't know how many times I want to say sorry to you. I'm really very sorry.

2010-10-14T01:32:00.003+08:00

Woots! Last paper yesterday! Can slack and relax all day today :D Anyways, I'm going out to orchard area with my uni friend later :D Gonna window shop and EAT! Muahahahha! Love love love eating! Shit I think I've put on some weight. Need to pull someone to gym with me xD

Oh ya... I'm prepared to fail POA... Now I'm starting to love econs. It used to be "I hate econs to the core!" I think it's also partly because of the teacher and the style of answering questions is very different from A'level style. In uni, we have super a lot of diagrams which I think I can understand better. Whereas for A'level, it's all about writing essays essays and more essays. Well... I'm really lucky that I've got such a humorous econs teacher. ^^

Anyways, PT is on Nov 15... I think I've said this b4 in my previous posts, but I'll just say it again xD I really wanna pass for the first time... But until now I'm still not confident enough... I need more practice!!! Btw, Uncle told me that next few lessons will be going to ubi and circuit. Woohoo! But that means more money too... Oh well, just enjoy every single driving lesson! :D

Just bought new guitar strings yesterday. Cost me $6... Reasonable :D $1 per string :) Yea! Learning how to change guitar strings this sat :D:D:D:D I think for the time being, I won't take up any CCA. I'll wait till next year. Since I've got guitar lessons outside, I think that would be sufficient to keep my stress level low :D

I want a gaming laptop!

tata~

2010-10-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

I'm addicted to playing Yellow by Coldplay on guitar now! Haha! When I first hear this song, I didn't really like it. But as I learn the chords, I'm beginning to love it! :D Although the strumming part is quite easy(all down strokes), but because of that, there is actually a wider space to add sth new to the strumming part. And I really love the part where the chord changes from A to Asus4. Wa... the feeling is indescribable.

Ok back to sch work. POA is really........................ ugh! I seriously don't know how to describe it. I was studying in the lib just now and was doing my POA tutorial. From neutral mood to super bad mood. From feeling ok to feeling giddy, nauseous and slight headache -.- This is the first time I got sooooooooooooooooooooo frustrated with a subject =.=

Oh ya I MISS MY BROTHER!!! T_T He went to Australia for NS training. He will be away for 18 days!!! *sob sob* My gaming partner is gone! My funny brother is not at home to bring me laughter T___T He will be back on the 16th of Oct. Faster faster!!! Hope he and his friends will be safe there :)

Getting fatter lately... I think maybe due to stress from sch. Keep wanting to snack when I got stuck in a question T_T Gym gym! I need to go to the gym!

Ok back to econs tutorial! Tata~

~still waiting for my prince <3~

2010-10-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

Hello People! My blog is alive again! (Hopefully there's still ppl visiting my blog o.o)

One week later will be my first test in SIM. Gonna mug for the whole of next week in sch lib. I heard that most ppl will fail for the first test. I really don wanna be in that statistics. I seriously wanna do well or at least pass all of the tests.

Actually, the system in UOL is the same as JC, Sec, and Primary. One exam u have to take and it's either u break or make it. I guess I'm used to this kind of education system and so I find it less pressurising for me compared to systems like poly where u have many projects to work on.

By the way, there's this china guy in my tutorial class. He is so cute! And he looks quite like my brother! He really gives me the brotherly feel and I like him a lot. Not that kind of bf/gf like though xD Okok, there's sth funny I wanna tell.

My Friend: Hey KK(initials of the china guy)! Yesterday u didn't come for the movie and Hui Tien was feeling sad. Hahaha!

KK: Oh! I was feeling sad too!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Me: *shy*

LOLOL! I thot he was the one who would feel shy! I didn't expect him to joke with my friend! Hahaha! He's so funny! Luckily he didn't feel awkward and still talks to me. Phew. So in the end, I was the one feeling shy -.-

Anyways, I'm really enjoying my DE programme year and I would seriously miss all my friends when I progress to the Bsc programme D:

Ok! Back to mug now! Tata~

2010-08-20T02:44:00.004+08:00

Sch's starting next tue. Mixed feelings, cos I wanna play and go to school at the same time. Aww... But I've got to focus. 1 year of diploma.... I have to nail it. I've got to get good grades and progress on to degree. I have a feeling that everything's gonna be worse than JC life. But yea... I'm prepared. I've been through hell in JC, I believe I can take it another time.

FTT test next wed, which is my orientation day. Super Zhun. Wish me all the best!!! :D

I can't go genting with temple friends!!! :(:(:( Cos I've got school. Damn it! Missed a chance to bond and have fun with them :( And this year would be the first year I have to spend my birthday in school. Nice. Hopefully SIM has CCA that I'm interested in and a nice bf I can find. Muahahahahahaha!!!! Opps!!! Haha!!! I don't know if I'm thinking too much cos I feel that I have to find a bf during Uni. If I start to work next time, I don't think there will be many chances for me to find a bf. Then I'll end up an old woman with no bf or not married ---------> Lao Gu Po. LOL! I think maybe I'm thinking too much. Hahahahahahaha!!!

Alrighty, back to study my FTT :D :D :D

2010-08-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

I am so dead. I really hope everything will be over soon. It's morally wrong for me to do that. Wrong Wrong Wrong!!!!! Fuck! How I wish I had no feelings! I really dunno what to do now. Just hope school can help me divert my feelings and attention. Argh!!!!! Stupid me!!!!!!!

2010-07-22T00:46:00.003+08:00

Yay!!! Guitar lessons will be on as usual. Just that it will be a different teacher :D Another thing is that I'm performing for NASS CO concert. My friends, come and support me can? If not me, then NASS can? But I will only be performing 1 song then the other 2 songs sit there zuo bo. Sian sia... Actually I don really feel like performing for this concert cos there's only 1 score for guzheng. Wa lao... then the Indra pangseh me >:( Anyways, the concert will be on the 31st of July at Singapore Conference Hall. Oh ya!!! I need to buy a black skirt. Eeyer, need to spend money again :( Have to budget budget liao.

I've attended 5 driving lessons already. On the 5th lesson, I learned to apply the handbrake correctly on a slope. It's not very steep, I think it's only like 10 degrees. Ok this is for me to remember the steps again, "Red light on a slope: Brake, clutch, brake, put to 1st gear, pull handbrake. Green light: Do the half clutch , release handbrake. (If car doesn't move, that's called balancing ur car) Let car go forward a little, slowly release clutch and increase pressure on accelerator. Go :D Manual is fun!!! :D Like racing!!! And uncle is so funny. He said, "You see la, nv look at your blind spot. Nvm u got 20 points for the instructor to minus. Minus somemore lor. I kok ur head ah! Next time cannot like that! Must look!". I was like ok ok ok haha. Hahahaha!!! I BUAY TAHAN the way he talk.

Yea!!! It's either camp or genting trip with temple friends. I don't mind either of them. I love camps and I wanna go genting to sit all those rides again!!! BUT I will never sit space shot again. The first time I sat, I thot I died. LOLOLOLOL. I mean seriously, your butt will be off from the seat when the thing goes down. But anyways, I'm really excited!!!

Tata ~~~ Guitar FTW!!! :D:D:D

2010-07-18T14:51:00.004+08:00

Yea! I got my bag and shoes for school and I decided to use that kido pencil box which I have been using in JC. I won't be buying a new note book cos I realised I have SOME at home. Lol. Will wait for more pay b4 I buy t-shirts :D I need to really save save save cos apparently some problems surfaced due to my school fees. Haiz... Another problem again. See la Hui Tien, can't go local U means more burden for parents to pay my sch fees. FML.

Anyways, no more guitar lessons. Wa lao!!! I've only attended 1 lesson leh :( But lucikly my teacher refunded me back my money. My teacher changed the location to Bukit Panjang for some reason. So far! eeeyer... Then he recommended me another teacher. But until now the new teacher hasn't contact me yet. So ya, waiting for his msg. Faster pls.

Ok that's all for today!!! :D

Tata ~~~

2010-07-04T15:20:00.003+08:00

Hell Yeah!! I got accepted by SIM into the Diploma Programme!!! :D :D :D Now it's time for shopping!!! I need a school bag, pencil box, nice nice stationary, a note book which serves as my diary, maybe a new water bottle too and some t-shirts for school. Oh my... That's a lot of things. Nvm, I'll try to find cheap cheap de, so that I can save some money :D

I'm so excited about the orientation! Can meet shuai ges! Muahahahaha!!! Oops, so embarassing! Hahahaha!! But I don't care! Oh ya oh ya, can meet new friends too :D

Aiyer, but the bad thing is that SIM is at Clementi!!! Wa wa wa!!! Super long journey! Hopefully by next year I can get my liscense and drive to sch :D Oh ya! My FTT clashes with my orientation. Sian TTM!!! Dunno whether can change the FTT date without paying more money or not. Hopefully can ba...

Oh! Oh! Oh! I'm performing gz for this dinner. It's organised by "Long2 Qi1 Hui4 Guan3". I'm kinda excited and nervous at the same time cos this is the first time I'm performing solo. Oh my god... Should I play Yi Zu, Zhan Tai, Po Shui or Yi Zu, Zhan Tai, Xue Shan? I'm still not familiar with Xue Shan but it's a super nice song. Haiya... I'll see first. Anyways, it will be on the 19th of Sept. Everybody, wish me luck and all the best ok!! :D

Ok! I'm off to practice gz now! :D Tata ~~

2010-06-29T02:42:00.003+08:00

I got rejected by SIM. But they suggested me this Diploma route. So I will be going for an interview at SIM later. I really pray that I'm shortlisted so that I can get into the Diploma programme. It is actually the Diploma/Bsc programme. For the first year, I'll be studying diploma in economics then second and third year I'll be sudying the degree programme. Oh my God, pls pls pls let me get pass this interview. I really need it very badly.

When I read the rejection letter, I thought IT'S THE END. Seriously, I cried over it. So many rejection letters came to me. I thought of giving up. I even thought of working at Mindlever for the rest of my life. Oh my goodness, what was I thinking? But ALL THESE are created by one and only one person. And that is ME. I told myself, this is all created by myself. So don't cry or complain that the world owes me. I have to pull myself up and look forward; pick myself up and never give up. So to my friend who encountered the same problem as me, I just wanna say, "Don't lose hope and faith. NEVER give up. 你能认命,但不能认输!"

2010-06-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

Hello people!!!

I just had my first driving lesson yesterday. It was so much fun!!! It was yesterday and not last wednesday because it was raining heavily in the morning that day. So yea kinda disappointed.

My instructor speaks in a super funny way. He has this rod to control your pressure of ur foot on the pedals. So when he wants to take that out, he said "ok I need to take my BARANG BARANG out." Muahahahahahaha!!!!!! Super funny!!! Ok ok back to main point. I'm currently learning manual now, so there's many steps to remember. U have to depress the clutch fully whenever u change a gear. Or else, the engine will stall. So yea, must remember that in order to save myself from any embarassment. Ok so I got on to the driver's seat. Oh My God, I AM DRIVING A CAR. I'm like, "I'm a grown up now, hello people I'm driving a car." But seriously driving a manual car is super fun. It's like racing cos u have to keep changing the gear.

Then my instructor told me to brake. It was the first time I step on a brake pedal and I didn't know it would be super sensitive. So for the first time, I stepped on the brake too hard and both my instructor and I jerked forward. So I was like opps I din know that would make the car brake so suddenly. Muahaha!! Kinda paiseh. Heh.

I've learned till the 3rd gear plus u-turn on my first lesson. I love to do a u-turn, cos u can turn the steering wheel so many times. Hahaha!!! I'm so looking forward to my next driving lesson and I can't wait to get a license and drive around Singapore!!!

Got to go now. Have to go to work tmr when it's suppose to be my off day. Super sian!!!! But nvm, I can earn more money. Heh.

Tata ~~

2010-06-14T02:44:00.002+08:00

Hello people!!!

I'm so excited cos I'll be starting my first driving lesson this coming Wednesday!!! But at the same time, I'm feeling kinda scared too cos I'm afraid I'll 'shi che' and drive up the curb or whatsoever. The other time when I went to the driving centre at ubi, this girl didn't turn back her steering wheel after turning right into the centre. So then the car went up the curb and the engine stalled. Omg that is just SUPER DUPER embarassing. The whole queue of cars were waiting behind her. So in the end, the instructor had to change seats with her. I'm afraid I'll be like her. Xindao, give me some tips for my first driving lesson. Heh :P

SIM pls send me a Letter of Acceptance. I'm dying to study there. Pls pls pls...

Alright!!! I'm going k box with my 38 Gz gals and Miss Tiong next wed!!! There's this promotion whereby each person only needs to pay $8 nett. But of course, u'll have to own a k box membership card. Luciky Miss Tiong is a member of K box, or else we won't be able to enjoy this promotion. I'm gonna sing the hell outta my voice and enjoy the day with my girls! :D

Oh yea, my Sis and niece came to my hse today!!! I just love the smell of babies!!! They have this milk smell and their skin is soooooo supple. I love to smell my niece and kiss her. Muahahaha!!! My niece did her business on her diapers and when my sis changed her diapers, I saw that the shit is yellow in colour. I din know babies' shit is yellow in colour. I think it's because they only drink milk and water. Anyways, the whole room was filled with baby Clarissa's shit smell. Hahaha!!! But no worries, it wasn't that bad. Hahaha!!!

Can't wait for Wed!!! :D Gtg

ciao~

2010-05-31T22:08:00.002+08:00

I was suppose to go K box today but in the end I didn't cos 1 was sick, the other just came back from malaysia and so left 3 of us. That would be boring so we didn't go. But the good thing was that I could sleep more!!! :D

I really wish that I can start studying real soon cos I'm really super bored with my life now. No goals, no target. Just work and save money. It's good that I can go out with my friends and slack around but I still think living with goals and something to work towards is really the life I want now. Hopefully SIM accepts me and I can start school in August.

Oh ya.. I watched Marley and Me yesterday. Omg... I teared a lot. It's such a touching show. I'm gonna buy the book and read it again :D I'm sure it's gonna be another fruitful trip to a true story. To me, reading a book is like a free ticket to somewhere else. Cos your whole mind would be in another world.

Why my DBS debit card so slow!!!!! I send my application form 1 week ago already!!! Faster faster!!! I wanna buy my books online!!! I have 3 books to buy. "Marley and Me", My Stroke of Insight" and "The South Beach Diet". Wa!!! I can't wait to get my DBS debit card and order my books online now!!!

I'm gonna watch The Last Song this wed with Pui Eh. Luckily, she's around to accompany me. Or else I'll feel super duper extremely bored at home this wed. Thanks babe!!!

By the way, any nice movie(need not be screening now) to recommend?? I wanna "da fa shi jian". Hahahaha!!! I shall google for nice movies to watch :D

Tata ~~~

2010-05-24T04:10:00.004+08:00

Hello guys! I'm blogging at such a time because i can't get to sleep. I think it's because i'm feeling happy and excited as i've learned the chords for the songs Crazier and The Climb. I'm really damn happy but my fingers are aching and there are blisters on them. It's okay la, you have to pay a price for everything. I'm gonna get a capo soon. Hopefully i don get cheated. Oh ya by the way i'm going to SIM tmr to hand in my application form. So ya, i have to take the mrt all the way to CLEMENTI mrt. Omg... Never mind, i have my mp3 and story book to accompany me throughout the journey :D Ok i'm finally feeling tired. I shall go and get my beauty sleep now.

Tata ~~

2010-05-22T15:33:00.003+08:00

'I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go'
Let Go by Kristine Mirelle

Damn!!! I've been dreaming of him every day for 3 days already. Every single day!!! Damn! Damn! Damn! How? Tell me what to do. People always say, "曰有所思夜有所梦". I guess I've been thinking too much in the day. But my brain keeps thinking of it. I can't control it. How how how?!?!?!?!

2010-05-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

Hello to those hu r reading my blog!!! :D

Today my Mum called me and asked me this, "你没有和你的男朋友出去了啊?" So I was like "we broke up already." Then yada yada... I told her what I told my friends and my sis. Hmm... I wonder how she realise that I broke up with him already. I guess because I'm always at home. LOL!!! After that, she went on to ask me about my uni application stuff. Actually what she suggested is to retake A'levels. I don think that's gonna work unless I get to go back to school and attend lessons. Besides, I've asked Ah Wong, he said don't put too much hope on retaking A'levels. I know it's gonna be difficult to study your own without anybody to teach you. I know myself, I don't have that kind of discipline when I'm left alone to study. Yea so I'll drop that suggestion. So then I told Mum that I'm taking Accounting and Finance in Curtin (hopefully). She gave me a great advise. She told me to start reading up on econs now. I was like, "Oh yah!! True. I've got to at least refresh my mind." Besides, I'm working in an Economics tuition centre now!!! I can ask my boss whenever I have any doubts!!! :D

I'm gonna read at least a few pages of my econs notes everyday!!! This is a promise I made to myself.

Ok I'm suana-ing while typing this entry. Omg the weather is super duper freakin extremely hot. I'm gonna on the air-con later when I go to bed :D Kk I shall go read my econs notes now!!!

Tata ~~~

2010-05-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

Before 9 May, I don't feel envious when I see couples behaving intimately. After that, I do. Haha.. I don't know why am I bringing this up but I think it's probably because I saw/heard couples calling each other 'Dear'. I thought I'm totally fine and everything's back to normal. But somethings just keep reminding of those days when happy stuffs happened.

I've always wished that my first one is my husband. And I actually feel quite ashamed when my first one is only a month plus. To say that I already let go of this relationship totally, is not the truth. How long more do I need? Memories can't be forgotten just like that. Especially happy ones. I'm trying to keep myself busy... But I guess that doesn't work. It's just another act of self-delusion. How I wish my brain is like the computer. I can just delete whatever files I don't need or don't want.

Before 9 May, I always have the excited feeling of meeting him after work or on weekdays. After that, I was kinda lost cos 一夜之间一切都不一样了. But subsequently, I got used to those days where I go home straight after work and those days where I stay at home more often.

Lucikly I got my family and friends to support me :D I'm so fortunate!!! These are the people who will be by my side forever and I must cherish them.

My eyelids are closing soon. Got to get my beauty sleep and go to work tmr!!! :D

Tata ~~~

2010-05-15T00:49:00.003+08:00

I finally passed my BTT today. I failed 2 times b4 I pass. How embarassing is that?!?!? But I'm happy that I've passed :D Next stop, find a teacher for practical lessons. I'm so excited!!! It feels as though I'm really a grown up now. Anyways, I will successfully learn how to drive and fetch my family members when I can :D

I'm going to visit my sis and her princess Clarissa tmr!!! :D Cutie pie!!! I just can't resist her cuteness!!! Gonna kiss her million times tmr!!! Muacks muacks!!!

2010-04-30T01:19:00.003+08:00

被人看不起的滋味真的不好受. 我真的有那么差吗? 有谁能理解我的感受?

2010-03-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday Dionna!!! Sorry I know I'm suppose to post this on 15 March. Sorry sorry =x

I'm going to dedicate this song to my dearest Dionna!!! :D It's called The Birthday Song. Pay attention to the lyrics girl cos everytime I listen to this song I think of you :D

2010-02-25T00:30:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I blogged... Haha...

I tell u guys sth... My work is kinda stressing me up now. Cos I'm still unfamiliar with many things and I'm sort of like the PA of my boss. So I kinda have to do everything for her. But she's a nice boss la. I'm quite lucky :D But I think it's really ironic. When I'm studying, I wanna work. When I'm working, I wanna study. Haha... I think most ppl are like that ba. Anyways, I must work hard and not be forgetful!!!!! I realise I always forget things!!! Bad bad bad!!!

Argh!!! Next fri would be a super duper scary and teary day for me. But after that day, I need to pull myself up and plan for my future. Hui Tien Jia You!!!

Been spending a lot this days. Shit... Must scrimp a little. Cos feeling abit guilty now. Haha.

<3

2010-02-10T21:11:00.005+08:00

给别人一次机会就是给自己一个机会.

虽然很害怕面对但还是要鼓起勇气面对!!!

慧恬加油!!!

2010-01-18T17:28:00.001+08:00

I saw this on TV and I really liked it a lot!!!! So sweet :D :D :D

*Seoul*

규현) 어느새 하루가 또 지나고
Kyuhyeon) eoneusae haruka ddo jinago
집으로 향한 나의 발갈음
jibeuro hyanghan nayeh balgeoreum
부푼 가슴에 처음 시작했던 그 맘 그대로
bupun gaseumeh cheoeum shijakhaettdeon keu man keudaero

제시카) 가끔은 피곤한 일상속에
Jessica) gakkeumeun pi gonhan ilsangsokeh
지쳐버신 내 몸을 이끌고
jichyeobeorin nae momeul ikkeulgo
길을 따라서 숨쉬고있는 나의 자유
gireul ddaraseo sumswigo ittneun nayeh jayu

Yes~! 느껴봐 희망 가득한 세상
Yes~! neukkyeobwa huimang gadeukhan sesang
Yes~! 저기 높은 미래 향해서
Yes~! jeogi nopeun mirae hyanghaeseo
s.e.o.u.l 함께 불러봐요 꿈이 이뤄질 아름다운 세상
s.e.o.u.l hamkke bulleobwayo kkumi irweojil areumdaun sesang
려욱) 어디서나 즐거움이 넘치는 곳~ 사랑해~!
Ryeouk) eodi seona jeulkeo umi neomchineun got~ saranghae~!
s.e.o.u.l 함께 외쳐봐요 어디서라도 웃을 수 있는
s.e.o.u.l hamkke oechyeobwayo eodiseoreodo useul su ittneun
태연) 행복~~ 모두가 하나되는 세상
Taeyeon) haengbok~~ moduga hanadwoeneun sesang

동해) 어디서 꺼져버린 내모습
Donghae) eodiseo kkeojyeobeorin naemoseub
후회없이 살진 않았는지
huhwoe eobshi saljin anhattneunji
부푼 희망의 처음 설레였던 그맘 그대로
bupun huimangeh cheoeum seolettdeon geumam geudaero
서현) 알수없는 내일이 궁금해
Seohyeon) alsueobneun naeil ii kungkeum hae
어렵고 험한일이 생겨도 견딜수있어 네게 부끄럽지 않도록
eoryeobgo heomhanil ii saenggyeodo gyeondil su isseo negeh bukkeuryeobji anhdorok

Yes~! 느껴봐 희망 가득한 세상
Yes~! neukkyeobwa huimang gadeukhan sesang
Yes~! 저기 높은 미래 향해서
Yes~! jeogi nopeun mirae hyanghaeseo
s.e.o.u.l 함께 불러봐요 꿈이 이뤄질 아름다운 셰상
s.e.o.u.l hamkke bulleobwa yo kkumi irweojil areumdaun sesang
려욱) 어디서나 즐거움이 넘치는 곳~ 사랑해
Ryeowook) eodiseona jeulkeoumi neomchineun got~ saranghae
s.e.o.u.l 함께 외쳐봐요 어디서라도 웃을 수 있는
s.e.o.u.l hamkke oechyeobwayo eodiseorado useul su ittneun

써니) 행복 모두가 하나되는 세상 만들어요
Sunny) haengbok moduga hanadwoeneun sesang mandeureoyo
성민) 두려운날도 때론 힘이들때도
Sungmin) duryeoun naldo ddaerun himideulddaedo
태연) 모두가 힘을모아 꿈의 날개 펼쳐요~~~우
Taeyeon) moduga himeulmoa kkumeh nalgae pyeol chyeoyo~~~ ooh

s.e.o.u.l (태연: 워우후~~)
s.e.o.u.l (Taeyeon: Weo ooh hu~~)
함께 불러봐요 꿈이 이뤄질 아름다운 세상 (규현: 세상~!)
hamkke bullyeobwayo kkumi irweojil areumdaun sesang (Kyuhyun: sesang~!)
려욱) 어디서나 즐거움이 넘치는 (제시카: 넘치는 곳~) 곳 사랑해
Ryeowook) eodiseona jeulgaumi neomchinneun (Jessica: neomchineun got~) got saranghae
s.e.o.u.l 함께 외쳐봐요 어디서나도 웃을 수 있는
s.e.o.u.l hamkke oechyeobwayo eodiseonado useul su ittneun
행복 모두가 하나되는 세상 만들어요
haengbok moduga hanadwoeneun sesang mandeuleoyo

*Seoul*

Before I knew it, another day passes and
My footsteps go towards home
With a mind that first started with a bulky heart

Sometimes inside the tired everyday
My breathing freedom drags my tired body and
Follows that road

Yes~! Feel the world full of hope
Yes~! Towards that high future over there

S.E.O.U.L. Call it with me, the beautiful word that makes my dreams come true
The place where joy overflows where I go~ I love you~
S.E.O.U.L. Shout it with me, the happiness that can laugh
Anywhere~~ The world where everything becomes one

My figure became cut off somewhere
As if I didn't live without regrets
With the mind that first fluttered at the bulky hope

I'm curious about the tomorrow that I can't know
Even if there is hard and harsh work, I can endure it to not be shy

Yes~! Feel the world full of hope
Yes~! Towards that high future over there

S.E.O.U.L. Call it with me, the beautiful world that makes my dreams come true
The place where joy overflows wherever I go~ I love you~
S.E.O.U.L. Shout it with me, the happiness that can laugh
Anywhere~~ We make a world where everything becomes one

When you start to fear the day and when you get tired
Everyone gathers strength and spreads their dream's wings

S.E.O.U.L. (Woah~~) Call it with me, the beautiful world that makes my dreams come true
The place where joy overflows (where it overflows) wherever I go~ I love you~
S.E.O.U.L. Shout it with me, the happiness that can laugh
Anywhere~~ We make a world where everything becomes one

CREDITS:
Kui-Xian @ soompi [For the ROMANIZATION]
aejung @ soompi [For the TRANSLATIONS]

<3 Super Junior to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

I think I'm just plain STUPID, FOOLISH, NAIVE, GUILLIBLE!!!!!!!! Just forget about him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fark y can't I do that?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Anyways he already got a gf. STUPID ME, REALLY STUPID ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH FARK LA!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-07T19:15:00.003+08:00

Many things happened these few days... Something happened again btw me and my l4d friend. Aiya... nvm I shall not elaborate on this.

Anyways, the tuition agency gave me an assignment. I'm suppose to teach primary 5 chinese. But, I haven't got a confirmation from the parent. So ya... I dunno if I'm gonna get this assignment or not. But I think low probability. Cos my o'level chinese result (B3) is quite sucky. Hopefully everything goes well and I can get this assignment :D But... I'm quite scared too, cos this is my first time teaching chinese and I don't really know how to teach chinese. All I know is check dictionary when u don't know the meaning of the words. Haha hopefully I'll find a way to teach them :D Pls give me some advice on teaching chinese if u happened to read my blog, tyty!!! :D

Oh ya!!! I watched Avatar yesterday. It's very nice!!! I like it a lot!!! I don't mind watching it again :D But unfortunately, my friend and I missed the first 15 min. Awwww!!!!!!!!! Dionna, can u help me ask ur bf to lend me the disc, tyty!!! :D I also want an Avatar!!! So cool!!! And I wanna fly an Ikran!!! Hahahahaha!!!

2010-01-04T17:46:00.002+08:00

I've been l4d-ing everyday since my hol... Haha go ahead and scold me. I think I won't be playing that much nowadays cos my friends have started school and hopefully there are primary school students who want tuition.

Through l4d, I've made many friends, really many of them. Among all of them, something happened between me and 1 of them. Erm... not that kind of thing ya. Haha!!! Dionna, u noe what I'm saying :D I think I've given up on him already. I'm quite positive. But the reason that I've given up on him is that another 1 comes into the picture. Oh my god, I feel so cheap. Ok nvm abt that. The most wonderful thing is that we have almost the same dream. My dream is to open a bakery(just cakes and desserts) and his is to open a restaurant like Bakerzin, where there is the main course and cakes, desserts etc. It's quite hard to find someone who has the same dream or ambition as yourself. I don't know if I like him or I just found a friend who has the same interest as me... I dunno... But this time, I won't say anything too early. (Dionna u noe what I'm saying here too right?? xD) Sui yuan ba... Oh yah, he said he's gonna bring me to Bakerzin someday cos I said that I haven't heard of it before. Hopefully, he'll forget what he said cos if he really ask me out, I wouldn't know what to do.

2009-12-01T01:54:00.002+08:00

I can't play L4D now. I'm really super frustrated. The internet connection for Garena is fucked up. What's wrong with my internet connection. Now there's so much time for me to relax and play and this kind of situation happens?!?!?!?!? Shit balls lah!!! When I'm not suppose to play, the thing works perfectly fine. When I have plenty of time, I cannot play. What is this?!?!?!?! Playing a prank on me?!?!?!?!

2009-11-26T19:27:00.006+08:00

People people!!! I'm so happy that I found this skin. I love Super Junior!!!! Wahahahaha!!! But I can't get their 3rd album cos it's out of stock. See how popular they are :D Many years of training and not being able to see their family really make them feel upset. But now they are super popular. So their efforts paid off!!! Congrats to them!!! :D

I went to this blogshop, www.lady-fashionsales.blogspot.com, and I found many things that I want to buy. But one of the sprees which I have something to buy from hasn't open yet :( Hopefully it's gonna open in a few days time :D Thanks to Dionna who recommended me this blogshop :D

I guess I'm getting old. Haha. I went shopping with my friends on tue. But I only walked for about 3 plus hours and I am super tired already. My back, legs and feet are aching. Worst of all, I got a headache right after I reach home. Oh my god... I guess I've been sitting down on the chair studying too much and not walking at all. So that's why I'm aching here and there. Haha!!

I've got my last paper on Mon and I just did a time trial. Guess what I got... 13/30. Shit man!!! Super demoralising. Don't care, gonna do some more later until I get it right. Anyways, I'm going buffet with my sec school friends tmr!! Yeah!! I love buffets!!! But this one would burn a little hole in my pocket. So I gotta put more in my pocket tmr and earn it back during the holidays. Daddy's not gonna give me pocket money anymore. So yah... gotta earn it myself.

`ciao

2009-11-26T00:32:00.002+08:00

I cannot believe what she said and I never knew she would look at me this way. She said directly to me, in my face, that I am someone who is very blur, someone who's not diligent(in other words STUPID) . She always think that she's the smartest among every one in our family. The worst thing is that she thinks Daddy doesn't care for us. She said that Daddy don't even bother to remember our age and that makes him a can't be bothered Dad. Daddy tries so hard to earn money for us to spend and all she can say about Daddy is that he's a can't be bothered Dad!!!! I really feel sad for Daddy to have this daughter. If I'm Daddy and I know that my daughter think of me that way, I would just give up hope on her. She keeps saying she wants to migrate to US(countless times). Last time, I would feel angry when she say that. But now, I don't feel anything. I just feel irritated that she keeps repeating the same thing. Anyways, I think her presence at home doesn't make much of a difference.

Sometimes I just wished that I didn't have to come to this world and realise the bad side of human beings. The worst thing is that you get to realise all these from your family and friends. Realising it from your family members is the worst thing that can happen. Suddenly, you will feel scared and later you wouldn't even wanna talk to him or her. This world is full of toxic, poison, distortion ... etc. All because of MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

I've been eating cheesecake everyday for the past 4 days. I bought this cheesecake from the Hokkaido fair at Tmall and it's $15 for 6 sticks only. Super ex!! But cheesecake is my favourite so I cant resist the temptation. Hehe... My bro's in army and my second sis is in Australia. My big sis don't eat alot and she goes out to eat like almost everyday. So I have no choice but to eat the cheesecake everyday as it's gonna expire on the 15th. Haha...
I'm actually quite sad cos this shows that nobody's at home except for my maid and I. I feel kinda lonely :( But nvm, at least I can concentrate on my studies. By the way, my second sis is gonna come back from Australia next monday. Don't know if she'll get HQO or not. If she have to then I'm quarantined too. Then I'll have to ans yes to Ah Wong's 3 questions. Haha!! Oh yah, except for the 'Are you a confirmed H1N1 case?' :D

2009-07-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

Judging from the no. of questions that I've completed for my Chem paper, I know I'm gonna fail this paper and my chem teacher will be taken away from me. Die die die!!! He's the teacher that I respect most and 'peifu' most. Most importantly, I can really get quite a lot of motivation from him. Why must the stupid school do banding? Banding for lectures is fine. But not tutorial!!! Now I have to get use to another new teacher which is really bad and stupid at this point of time when A's is so close. Don't know who's that f***ing idiot to band us. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! They suck big time!!!!

I DONT WANT banding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-01T19:44:00.002+08:00

Look at that poor little plastic bag there. Doesn't it look pitiful that you wanna put it in some other place and not by itself beside the drain?? Guess what... This plastic bag was not flown there or thrown away by some people at the ground level. It was THROWN DOWN by some mother fucking ji bai who lived in the house which I took photo of the window above. I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES. It's such a waste that I din manage to capture it in video. I guess that mother fucking ji bai don't have a dustbin at home and he/she is paralysed as he/she cannot walk to the refuse chute to throw this plastic bag. I really cannot understand how people think and how they behave. Can someone enlighten me?

2009-06-21T22:42:00.002+08:00

Everything's just going haywire now. My life, my family.... It just sucks man. My bro's in army and he twisted his ankle. My mum's not in the pink of her health. My studies sucks like shit. My maid's going back to philippines for a month this 1st of July and SO we have to spend money to buy her tickets and SO I have to do the chores for 1 month. And many many more which I don't wanna mention here. How am I gonna cope with my studies? I know some of you might think, 'Don't be a spoilt brat. You're only gonna have to do the chores for 1 month, but I've been doing it all my life!' I guess ure half right. I AM A SPOILT BRAT!! But my brain really functions not the way a pro would so I think I have the right to complain. The #!@%!%$&^&!!$%$!% thing is that my mum doesn't want to rest even she knows that she's not feeling well. AND she comes back from work with a black face saying that she's not feeling well. I feel helpless and angry at the same time. Why can't you rest when u know ure sick!?!?!? You are the one who's not helping yourself here!!! I really cannot understand.

Why can't my brain just be a little like Koh Wei Xin's one!?!?!?! FUCK everything that's happening now!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a jerk!!!!!!

2009-06-21T21:37:00.001+08:00

This is called raisin walnut bread pudding. I made it myself :D 1 thing that I think I could improve on is to add more sugar. I wasn't sweet enough. Anyways, I'm so happy that I baked something!! Hahahaha!!!

2009-06-15T00:49:00.003+08:00

Hey guys... Sorry for the screwed up outing yesterday. Hope u all still had fun :)

I love the Swensen's part. I shld have taken photos of our food. But we were too hungry that our food disappeared in 5 secs!! Hahaha!!! Thanks Yuanlin and Chari for treating us the ice-cream. Love ya!!!

Din get to hug Sam, Chari and Darren :( Shld have hugged them when I hugged Lin :(

2009-06-07T17:37:00.002+08:00

This post is requested by some people. That people is actually just a person la. But later I need to use 'people' in some sentences to make that few sentences nicer. So I use people instead of person.

This people is so buay hiao bai. She want me to blog something abt her cos she blogged something abt me. Nvm, I'll just fufill her wish. Hahaha!!!

I shall start now.

I don't like people who dye their hair.
I don't like people to keep their nails long(esp the forth finger).
I don't like people who have very fair skin.
I don't like people to bring the whole set of higlighters to school.
I don't like people to cut their nails and keep it and then show it to her friends.
I don't like people to punch a small hole through her nails and wear a stud through it.
I don't like people who wear white shoes with yellow shoelace.
I don't like people to wear a stud which is spoilt.

I think that's about it for now. Maybe in future I will add on more 'I don't like PEOPLE' to this list. Hahahaha!!!

This 'people' that I've been talking about is Dionna!!! Hahahaha!!!!

2009-06-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry Mummy. I din mean to tell you off. I'm so so sorry. I actually put everything that I wanna throw away in the box outside but you put the box back into my room and helped me organise my things. But I wannna do it myself and my way. I know you just wanna help. I'm so sorry. But just let me do it myself. I promise you I'll clear the things very quickly.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!!

2009-05-30T19:39:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I dreamt of her.

I dreamt that I got into a fight(its really a fight not an argument) with her. The stupidest reason for this fight was that she kept following me and I got irritated. Lucky it was only a dream. I guess subconciously, I really hate her following me around. Looking at her and knowing that she's just near me really boils my blood. I don't know why but I can't help it. Everytime she talks to me, something just keep repeating inside my mind, "Get out of my life! I don't wanna talk to you! You just irritate me with everything that's involved with you!". Whenever she's absent from school, I'll be like "Yay! I'm free!". I am crazy, am I? I don't know when will I explode and shout at her. Or mayb that day just won't come. Hopefully.

`I hope it's just for a short while`

2009-05-29T23:35:00.004+08:00

Don't you get it??? 你是不是不感面对???
I'm a jerk.

I'm crazy.

My brain is saturated.

有人疼的感觉真好.

2009-05-26T19:06:00.006+08:00

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

A song with very motivating lyrics. I really like it a lot. I think it really describes what I'm going through now.

Enjoy~ :D

2009-05-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

I don't know why people behave like that? Worst of all, those people that I'm refering to are Ah Tiong (in one of the dialects, go figure it out yourself). I already have a very bad impression of them (partly due to the one in my class). But today's incident just made me hate them more.

I went home from Jalan Besar (MJC boys soccer match) taking the MRT. It was super duper squeezy in there. This man, who is an Ah Tiong kept tsking me cos my big bag kept pushing him. Hello, for goodness sake it's just a bag. Do you fucking have to keep tsking me?!?!? I really don't wanna hate them. But they just irritate me so much. Go back to where you came from la... Don't go to other people's territory and irritate them and in the end say that you all are being treated differently(in a negative way). Really, just fuck off...

Sorry guys for having you all to read a post filled with vulgarities. But ya... I'm really angry and I need to say that word to ease my anger.

Got to go and mug now... Oh!!! I've got something to say, I LOVE CHEMISTRY TUTORIAL(one of the things that gives me the incentive to go to school)!!! Hahaha!!!

2009-05-09T00:34:00.003+08:00

6 May - SYF 2009

Silver.
To me, I didn't do my best. I screwed the whole thing up. The worst thing is if I screw up, everybody in the theatre can hear it. I really cannot forgive myself. I cried after our performance. This is the first time I've performed so badly that I really need to apologise to MJCO. We spent so much time practicing, but...haiz... However, I believe MJCO is more than silver. Maybe it just isn't our day.

I really thank all those people who comforted me and stayed by my side while I was crying. Thanks a lot to Soh Woon, Qi En, Jia Yu, Eileen, Cedric, Wydre, Miss Liu, Yun Qi, Kok Nam, Jason, Gao Xin, Siew Min, Wendy and most importantly Mr Zheng, my conductor. He is the person that I would remember for the rest of my life and would miss most after stepping down from MJCO. He was one of the person who comforted me and really allowed me to let go of the mistake I made. He was also the one who gave me recognition and boosted my confidence. I really wish that he could be my conductor for as long as possible. I guess our fate ends here.

Anyways, I've recovered from the big blow (to me) and returned to my old self :D So, not to worry. Also, I really appreciate my classmates for consoling and comforting me. I know that they will always be by my side :D Thank You Jenny, Sihan, Dionna, Meishan, Wei Xin, Wai Shin, Audrey, Aline, Xin Li, Miss Yong(for telling me to cheer up)!!!! I love you all!!! Muacks! Muacks!

I realised so many people care about me. I'm so blessed and fortunate :D Hui Tien, you must appreciate and cherish this!!!! :D

2009-04-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

I really don't know how much of this I can take anymore... Meeting with failures again and again. I bet nobody can understand what am I going through now. I want to believe in what Mr Wong said. "Never stop believing in yourself, never lose faith." That was what he said. But all these failures that I've experienced simply proves something about me. I don't wanna type it out as I'm afraid that I'll really believe that that's my potential. At this point of time, I'm still failing my EXAMS. Look carefully, it's EXAMS. And it's not just failing 1 subject. It's failing ALL subjects. It's ALL!!! I do my school work. I ask when I don't know. Where did I go wrong?? Why are some people smart and I'm not. Life is so unfair!!! When can I start to feel secure? When? When? When?

'Suck it up and move on.' Quoted from my econs teacher. I think most people in JC need to know this.

FUCK everything!!!!

2009-04-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl!!! Guess what??? I went to donate my blood!!! Woohooo!!! I feel so happy :D I think it's really a damn meaningful thing. As this was my first time, I keep thinking that it's gonna be very pain. Hahaha... But actually it doesn't hurt at all. I feel so proud of myself :D After leaking 450ml of my blood into the packet, I still have milo to drink, raisins and oreo biscuits to eat. Hahaha!!! I'm actually still wearing the bandage now. I just feel that it's so cool that I don't wanna take it off!!! Hahahaha!!! Sha sha de :p

2009-04-11T16:21:00.002+08:00

Pls go and read 10th April 2009, Straits Times, Home page 4. There something about my school which I am really really really proud of :) "Why are we so pro?? We also don't know!!!" Hahaha!!!! (I know I'm a little arrogant here, but I can't help it :P)

2009-04-09T16:37:00.003+08:00

I fell down yesterday!!! So painful!! My maid was mopping the floor and so it was wet. Thinking of more food, I rushed to the table wanting to get some. While rushing, I slipped and fell!!! Omg!!! My bum just dropped on the floor. Ouch!!! Lucky I'm not outside. Hahaha!!! My bro was super anxious abt me!! When he saw me lying on the floor, he flew to me like a rocket. Hahaha!!! He's really concerned abt me. So lucky to have him :D My sis bf so bad... He said that when I fell down, there wasn't any 'boom' sound. That's cos I have a big butt to cushion myself. Arghhh!!! Hahahah!!! I know he's just kidding but still very bad!!!

I've got a bad news and a good news.

I shall tell you guys the bad one first. I didn't pass any of my subjects for this march block test. Omg... I am so dead man. Failing GP really scare the shit out of me. It really feels so unsecure. I even failed my H1 subject which is phy. Omg!!!! What am I doing??? I really wonder what's there abt me to be proud of...

Okay, so the good news comes... I got A for PW!!!!!! Wooohoooooo!!!! In fact my whole class got A!!! Congrats to them and of course myself :D Most importantly, I've got to thank my PW tutor. Thank You Ms Yong!!!! Thank you for helping us with everything. Thank you for your advice and knowledge. 08S414 really appreaciate it!!! :D

BUT.... I cannot be complacent. I've only won 2/7 of the battle. I have to work hard to more As. A, wo lai le!!!!!!!

`ciao

2009-03-21T18:06:00.002+08:00

I have been sleeping at 3am these few days to study for my MBT. I realised that I can only study in the night. It feels as if there's less ppl ard me as they are all sleeping. Haha... Oh yah... I've all started listening to YES 933 from 11pm to 2am. It's hosted by Chong Qing. Wahahahahaha!!! He super funny!!! I even sent in an sms yesterday venting my frustrations abt my exam next week. I thought I sent in quite late and he wouldn't be able to read my sms. But I still waited and I heard my sms!!! hahahah!!! So fun!!! I sent another one wishing my dad happy b'day but Chong Qing needs to knock off already. So he din read my sms. Aww...so sad. If u all don't mind sleeping late, u can listen to his programme and you'll laugh till u fall from your chair. I gotta continue mugging. Bye!!

2009-03-19T13:56:00.003+08:00

He stepped into my heart without noticing it.

I'm a little crazy these days. Sometimes he make me feel irritated and I'll tell myself that I don't like him. But a few moments later, I'll think of him again. Arghh!!! super irritating. I hate the feeling of liking someone secretly.

Once bitten twice shy.... I shall become a person without feelings.

I saw sammy's blog and I went to attempt this quiz. I think most of them are quite accurate!!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (very true)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (super true)

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. (very true)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (super duper ultra true)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-03-07T16:46:00.003+08:00

I just got back my A'lvl chinese results yesterday. When my teacher passed me my result slip (the side with my result was facing down), I didn't dare to look at my results. My eyes were partially filled with tears. A few days ago, I was hoping that I won't get a C.

When I turned the result slip over, I saw a B. Wahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha!!!!! So happy!!!! BUT!!!! My oral deproved. I got a distinction for O'lvl but I only got merit for A'lvl. Haiz.. so sad. But nevermind!! I still got my B!!! Hahahahaha!!!! The most amazing thing is that when I told my mum abt my result, she said, "wa!! good good." I was shocked cos she always want me to get A for everything. This is the first time my mum's so supportive of me. Hahaha!!! So happy!!! Oh yah... Because of my result, my daddy's gonna bring me for roti prata tonight. Hehehe!!! I shall go and enjoy my roti prata :D

I will work hard for my A's this November!!! :D

`ciao

2009-02-27T19:46:00.002+08:00

Due to popular demand, I shall update my blog. Haha... jkjk.

CO practice is getting intense these few weeks. I think they're gonna increase the number of practices per week to 4 times. But I dunno when. I hope it doesn't affect my studies. I've tasted the life of JC and I really think that the fittest will survive. Fittest as in spiritually. You really need lots of perseverance and motivation. A few more months and it's gonna be over. Huitien JIA YOU!!!

I think my CO conductor is so funny. This is what he said, "Dizi, ni gang cai chui de bu shi hen hao. Yao hui qu lian. Zhe zhong dong xi yao lian dao hen shou, lian dao gei ta LAN DIAO." Hahahaha!!! I just find it so funny when he say lan diao. But I don't get it why conductors don't bother to remember their students' name. When it's my turn to play the guzheng, he always say, "GUZHENG, da sheng yi dian." My name is Hui Tien, not guzheng. *sob sob* I know there's like 60 over ppl in CO but i think he should still try and foster teacher-student relationships with us. I think I will respect him more.

I miss my sec sch friends!!! I wanna see them!!! I wanna hug them!!! I wanna go out and chill with them!!! I'll ask u all out after A's. Muacks!!! I love all of u,u,u,u,u,u,u,u,u and many many more u!!!

`ciao

2008-12-16T19:03:00.003+08:00

This year's b'day is really a VERY VERY VERY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEET 17!!! I love my friends so much that i wanna kiss all of them!!! This is the first time i got a surprise b'day celebration. Hahaha!! Guys, although I don't look very surprised it doesn't mean that I'm really not that surprised. Its actually becos of 2 guys thats why I sort of guessed that u all will surprise me. And and and, actually i was very touched la. It's just that i don't know how to show my feelings. Hehe xD dont blame me la... But anyways!!!! I LOVE you guys so much!!!! MUACKS!!!!!

Mood: Super Duper Ultra Freakin Happy!!!!

2008-11-20T00:40:00.003+08:00

为什仏世界上会有这么嚣张的人?

Can someone enlighten me ?

2008-11-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

Infinite YAYS for Aetii!!!! Your O'lvls are officially OVER!!!! I'm sure that kind of feeling is superb. Hahahaha!! It's like u can jump down from a 10 storey building! Haha!!!

I'm watching a korean drama called Single Dad in Love. Omg!!! The male lead is super duper handsome!!! I wanna marry him :D This show is really very nice. I recommend u all to watch it :)

TTFN! :D

2008-11-06T13:34:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!! I'm so bored that I went to read my own blog, as in all the previous posts. Hahahaha!!! I realise that I've grown up a lot and I was super childish in the past!! It's quite fun to read your previous posts cos you can go back to that point of time and feel your anger, embarrasement, happiness etc. Haha! You will also realise that you english has improved A LOT. And I really mean a lot!!! Haha!! In the past, my posts were filled with all the 'la', 'leh', 'lor', 'sia'. Hahahaha!!! It's really funny :D

TTFN!

2008-11-03T17:19:00.002+08:00

This is actually an e-mail I received. I thought it was super funny so I decided to show it u ya'll :D

《老板没有错》

1) 老板绝对不会有错。

2) 如果发现老板有错,一定是我们看错。

3) 如果我们没看错,一定是因为我们的错,才让老板犯错。

4) 如果是老板自己的错,只要老板不认错,老板就没有错。

5) 如果老板不认错,我们还坚持是老板的错,那就是我们的错。

6) 总之老板绝对不会有错,这句话绝对不会错。以上这段话,请下属每日念六遍,以免犯错。

2008-10-24T13:45:00.002+08:00

PLEASE DO NOT go the the shop that sells electronic devices at tmart(the one beside the shop that sells bubble tea). I really dont understand why some people serve customers as if the customers owe them money. If they don't wanna serve then don't work la. Wait for their own body to rot and die lor.

I went to that shop and ask to modify my psp. You know what he said?

That sucker plus fucker, "Modify psp $50."
Me, "Huh! My friend modified their psp at $10."
That sucker plus fucker, "$10 ah, you go lor(ni qu lor)."

He is really a fucker, sucker, chicken bye bye and every vulgarities u can think of.

2008-10-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

You are the World's Top No. 1 Bitch. Hey, I gave you this name. Very nice right! :D The kind of sacarstic tone from your mouth is really well delivered by you. I really must applaud for that talent of yours. I wonder do you treat your close friends like this. Must you talk to me with this kind of tone? Oh!! I know I know!! Maybe that is just your habbit. Your habbit of being a BITCH! I think you'll win if you're arguing with another bitch. That will prove your IN-BORN talent of being a bitch. Maybe I'm being too sensitive here, but I still think you're a BITCH.

2008-10-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

Promos is over... BUT I still have my PW. ARGH!!! So irritating! The worst thing is that I have oral presentation to do!! That's my weakest part. I'll get super nervous when I need to present something. Somebody just help me!!! Another thing is that I'm having my Chinese A'lvls on 30/10. So now, although promos is over, I cannot even really play happily. I'll be worrying abt my PW and Chi. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I WANT TO JIAN FEI!!!!!!!!!

Human beings are just like that...

2008-09-05T14:34:00.003+08:00

When you finally see some results in whatever you do, you feel happy and motivated. You will want more of that feeling. On the other hand, people who are usually not very close to you will suddenly ask you more about that particular thing. But when you're a nobody, they don't talk very often abt that particular thing with you. It's just so sad... Something that happned recently just proved to me that human beings are REALLY like that. Although they don't treat you like dirt when you're a nobody(which is a good thing, LUCKILY), but you just know that they have a motive for getting closer to you. I'm just so disappointed. I know that I already know this exists in the real world. But it just never happened to me before until now. That's why I'm feeling disappointed.

`I finally see the real world

2008-08-11T13:23:00.004+08:00

Went to Chari's hse on National Day to celebrate Sam, Wei Yi and Cheng Yao's B'day. So much food and I ate a lot too!! I think I put on weight again!! I ate till I dont feel like standing up, I just felt like lying on the sofa. Hahaha!! I'm such a pig!! Look at Robert's hair!! Haha!! I can finally touch a 'botak' head!!! hahaha!! Darren also went 'botak'!!! Hahaha!! One more to touch :D

Although the cake doesn't look very nice, the cake taste good. The cake is super big. I think it's 3 kg. I shared my slice with Aetii :D Lucky I shared with him, or else I will put on more weight!! LOL!!

They are the ones I won't forget!!! :D I love them so much!!!

2008-08-05T00:43:00.004+08:00

虽然我知道会发生,而事情也真的发生了, 我还是很害怕那种感觉. 我还笨得一头灾进去; 笨得又让白己受伤害. 我明明知道他不可能喜欢我,但我还继续喜欢他. 我真的好笨啊!!!!!

2008-08-04T17:09:00.001+08:00

爱人是辛苦的,被爱才是幸福的!!!!!!!

2008-07-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

Went dinner with 2r1 friends last fri :D I am just so happy meeting them. Seeing them is like going back to the days where not much pressure is felt; where innocent and naive thinkings are in our minds. We chatted for really a long time. We started chatting from 8pm to about 11pm. Leo is still the most talkative one. But I like it that way :D You always have this kinda people to prevent the deafening silence. Oh! Oh! I gave eash of them a hug(or took a hug from them, depends how u see it). The only person I didn't give was Sam. Cos she was talking on the phone. Isaac told me that a person needs 4 hugs to survive. I got 8 hugs!!! Whoooohoooo!!! I earned the survival of 2 days!!! haha... When I boarded the bus, I felt a sense of insecurity. That's cos my friends were leaving me. Not really leaving but we are separating. I really feel sad and I din know that I will miss them that much until I met them. Really thanks Bai for organizing this whole meeting :D

Reminiscing my sec 2 days ~~

2008-06-17T00:49:00.005+08:00

Went K box today :D so fun and happy!!! I love all of them :D Chatted for a long time at Xin Wang :D

2008-06-15T02:31:00.002+08:00

I feel that I'm always the one that people will feel like protecting, always letting other get worried abt me. I dunno why but I think its cause of my face and mayb my actions too. I feel like a baby. I know sometimes its good to let others care for me and I also like that feeling. But I feel so... I really cant explain. Sometimes I really feel dumb. And I really hate it when I do things my way and others know a shorter way. AND AND AND the most fucking part is when they ask me why dont I use the shorter way. How am I suppose to know there is another shorter way?!!? I really really feel damn fucking dumb!!! All these applies when Im studying too. That's y I need a longer time to understand a concept compared to others. It's fucking frustrating seeing others being able to understand it within such a short time. Why?!?! Why others can and I can't!? This isn't fair!! The world is never fair!! How am I suppose to overcome this ?

2008-06-10T19:08:00.002+08:00

Today went wisma shopping by myself. First and last thing: After I went out of the mrt, this girl came up to me and asked me something. I thought it was some survey and I kept saying sorry sorry sorry and I walked off hurriedly.

Later after I finished shopping, I walked pass that place again. This time, a guy came up to me and asked me(with the same purpose as the girl). I thought, just now I treated the girl unpolitely so now I give them a chance and listen to what they wanna say. Actually, they are selling pens for $2 for the orphanage. I asked him what organisation is doing this but he did not tell me exactly. I couldn't really bother too much abt it so i just agree to give him $2. Anyways, I've done my part by donating, if they cheat my money, they will get their retribution. So ya..

The girl was standing right behind me when I was listening to the guy. After I walked off(not a very far dist), the girl said, "Wa lao! I asked her just now de lor..............." I couldn't hear the '............' part. But I guess she said that I agree to buy the pen cos it was a guy who came up to me and asked me.

That's the end of 10/6/08.

ciao` :D

2008-06-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

Too Busy for a Friend...
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in
VietNam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

And One Way To Accomplish This Is: Forward this message on. If you do not send it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunity to do something nice and beautiful. But it's up to U to fwd this one.

If you've received this, it is because someone cares for you and it means there is probably at least someone for whom you care.

If you're 'too busy' to take those few minutes right now to forward this message on, would this be the VERY first time you didn't do that little thing that would make a difference in your relationships?

The more people that you send this to, the better you'll be at reaching out to those you care about.

Remember, you reap what you sow. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.
May Your Day Be Blessed As Special As You

Something that I received from my friend. Its so sweet and touching :D

2008-06-10T00:52:00.003+08:00

I cut my hair like 2 days ago. Here's my new haircut :D

2008-06-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

this is really sweet........
> >
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> > When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
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> > When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
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> > When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions .. she is wondering
> >
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> > how
> >
> > long you will be around.
> >
> >
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> >
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> > When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at
> >
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> > all
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> > fine.
> >
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
> >
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> > When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers
> >
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> > forever.
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> > When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
> >
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> > When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
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> > When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you
> >
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> > more
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> > than that.
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> > Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person
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> > Find a Guy . who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back
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> > when you hang up on him.
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> > who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ...
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> > Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who
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> > how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns
> > to
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> > his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

I opened my mail and i saw this. I think most of them are true and hope to share with u guys :D

2008-05-19T18:55:00.002+08:00

I got this from a mail. I think it makes sense.

GEORGE CARLIN (His wife recently died...)

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin-shockcomedian of the 70's and 80's
>> - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.
>>
>> A Message by George Carlin:
>>
>> The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings
>> but shorter tempers, wider Freeways ,but narrower
>> viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.
>> We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but
>> less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but
>> less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but
>> less wellness.
>>
>> We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
>> little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too
>> tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
>>
>> We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk
>> too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
>>
>> We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years
>> to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and
>> back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We
>> conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things,
>> but not better things.
>>
>> We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the
>> atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan
>> more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We
>> build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies
>> than ever, but we communicate less and less.
>>
>> These are the times of
>> fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep
>> profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes
>> but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of
>> quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands,
>> overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet,
>> to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and
>> nothing in the stockroom. A time when te chnology can bring this
>> letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this
>> insight, or to just hit delete...
>>
>> Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
>> going to be around forever.
>>
>> Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
>> because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
>>
>> Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
>> the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a
>> cent.
>>
>> Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones,
>> but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it
>> comes from deep inside of you.
>>
>> Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
>> will not be there again.
>>
>> Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the
>> precious thoughts in your mind.
>>
>> AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
>>
>> Life is not measured by the number of
>> breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
>>
>> If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?
>>
>> George Carlin

2008-05-19T02:23:00.003+08:00

pls watch this!!! It's so damn funny!!! I think he can be an entertainer rather than a singer!!! hahaha!!! I love the part where the host says, "look at his face!" Hahahaha!!!

2008-04-25T17:48:00.003+08:00

He is the first magician that I've come so close with... He showed me real life magic. OMG!!! He is so damn PRO!!! Check out youtube and search jaspas. I really admire him so much!!! Too bad he already have a girlfriend. Haha just kidding :P

I'm into bleeding love lately. All thanks to Tan haha... He's a good teacher man... But he's leaving already. Oh man, what a pity!

I've been a crazy girl in school lately. I don't know why, but i just keep laughing. But I like it this way =) I'll be happier every single day :) Oh, and a new trend in my class is going on. The trend is writing post cards. Haha!! So lame!! But I think it's good. Cos we're sort of strengthening our friendships :)

I've decided to run for my CCA's Ex-co. OMG!! I have to prepare a rally. Arghh!! So nervous abt it!! I chose the secretary position. The rally is next wed(30/4)!!! Wish me luck!!! :D

You are being missed by me:
Samantha
Tryphena
Wong
Indra
Darren
Yuhan
Yuanlin
Robert
Brandon
Isaac
Aetii
Jacintha
Meilin

2008-03-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

s'ehs hcus a hctib!! I etah reh!! ukcf U!!

am i too serious?

2008-03-04T19:43:00.002+08:00

I feel so sad. My sec school friends and I have drifted apart. But I already have 'xin li zhun bei' for this. Cos I'm in a JC and will not have a lot of time to go out with them. Now, in JC I'm still not speaking up. I'm still someone who's sitting there listening to others talk. I'm afraid that if I say sth stupid, others will think that I only speak nonsense and don't like talking to me. I think I talk to myself more than I talk to others. I'm afraid of this, afraid of that. When can I start to be the old me? Why did I develop this stupid thinking? I think I'm too concerned abt my appearance. I want to speak with 'substance' too badly. Fuck! Just say anything will do!!! I just keep thinking that if I do this I will embarrass myself. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!! Damn it!! I think I try too hard. I try too hard to be perfect in everybody's eyes. I think I'm a toooooooooooo serious person. I really try too hard.

At this pt of time, I think I'm despo for a boyfriend. I think I want someone to talk to too badly. I want to feel the happiness of having a boyfriend; the happiness of having someone to love me. But now is not the time to think abt this. It shld be studies. I keep telling myself to let nature take its course. But I cant help it. I can't wait. Can someone just be my bf for 1 day? Haha just kidding. It's impossible.

Tell me what to do to be myself. Tell me how not to care too much about being perfect in everyone's eyes.

happy happy!!!

2008-01-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

I have a good news to tell all of u!! Guess what? My previous maid, Angie, came to Singapore on the 23!! She's staying in my house now!!! Hahahaha!! I'm so happy!! I can see her again. I can talk to her!!! Tell her about everything that has happened!!! But actually I'm also very afraid. I'm afraid of losing her. I don wan her to go back. She will be going back to Philippines on the 23 of Feb. I think I'll cry when I send her off. Now I have 2 people serving me. But I feel so bad for her to serve me. She come here for holiday and I make her serve me?!?! But actually she did it out of willingness. I really wanna make full use of the time when she's here with me. But I'm really busy with school work. I have tests next week and the following week. No matter what, I will cherish the time when she's with me :)

2008-01-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

I'm having my first econs test tmr!! And I'm here slacking!! I hope I can understand the concepts and apply it correctly. Although this test is not included in our overall marks, I still have to study for it and see where my standard is. Anyways, I have already decided to stay in MJC. So no matter what I have to work hard and achieve my goals.

PE is tiring!! We have to run 2.4km for every PE lesson!! But, because of this I can slim down :D Oh yah! I'm also in Wellness Programme. It's a programme for overweight students. I also have to run to burn fats!! Conclusion: Life for me now is running, running and running.

I'm running for the road race and the distance is 3.3km. I don't even know if I have the ability to complete the race. Anyways, I'll be running for my house:) Go Miranda 3!! Everybody! Give me some moral support!! I really appreciate it :D

I shall go and mug.

"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another." Walter Elliott

2008-01-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! School started a few days ago and I enjoyed my orientation at MJC. But I only enjoy it at the last day. Haha its always like that.. Supposedly, there should be campfire on the last day, but due to the wet weather, it was cancelled. Awww so sad. But nvm... Anyways, I was lucky to have 2 shuai ges to be my orientation group leader. Wahahaha I keep looking at one of the ogls and I think he knows it! But I cant control myself! The other ogl is cute la not shuai.

I asked my senior abt school work in Meridian and she said that it's very stress. And I'm really worried abt GP. I really got to work my ass off for the next 2 years. Hui Tien JIA YOU!!!

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit."-Aristotle

2007-12-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

hey ppl! it's been a long time since i blogged:) Well... I went for my MJC CO practice and in the end, i din get to play gz. I became the percussionist instead. *sigh* Now, going to CO practice becomes a burden to me. I cant do the things that I like and I'm really vv unhappy. I hope I get to play gz as soon as possible.

A piece of good news for y'all. I participated in the East Zone Competition and I got GOLD. WOOHOO!! Most importantly I participated in the solo. That makes me feel a great sense of achievement! Im happy!

2007-11-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Am I able to do it? Can I do it? I know it's bold, but I've got to do it. Cos I know if I don't do it that day, I will lose Xxxxxxxx. And I will regret for the rest of my life. Pls give me the courage to do so. Pls pls...

2007-09-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I got sick and tired of studying. But its part and parcel of life. So I have no choice. I looked at my friend's report book and I was apprehensive about my o'lvl. I felt like I was gonna pee and cry anytime. I loathe this feeling. Anyhow, I've got to finish the last part of this journey. Hope that I can really focus on what I want and get it.

"You have a very powerful mind that can make anything happen as long as you keep yourself centered.

Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

2007-09-08T16:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Disney Channel's gonna air High School Musical 2 tmr!! Whoohoo!! I've been waiting for this for a long time. But, school's starting the day after tmr. Aww... I still feel like having one more week of holiday. Oh man... I haven't been stuyding for this week. Damn! I just hope the O'lvls will end quickly. Shit man! I've been eating lately and getting more fats onto my body! ARGH!

1. eat too much XXX bad!!!

2. not studying XXX bad bad bad!!!

3. spending $$ XXX bad bad!!!

okay.. that's enough. TTFN!!

"If your determination is fixed, I do not counsel you to despair. Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance."

Samuel Johnson

2007-08-31T12:41:00.000+08:00

Arggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!! I spent $30.40 for such an ugly haircut!! So idiot!! Stupid hairstylist!! I shld have gone to somewhere else. Actually it's very obvious that the hairstylist is a newbie. When she's cutting my hair, she's very slow. And she looked like she is so afraid that she would cut a hairstyle that I don't like. The reason being why she took quite a long time to cut my hair is because she only grab a little of my hair each time she cut. I'm never gonna go back there and cut my hair. Now I really hate my hair. I'm gonna try other saloons next time and I will condemn this shop!!!

Motivation alone is not enough.If you have an idiot and you motivate him,now you have a motivated idiot. -Jim Rohn-

2007-07-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

Im so excited abt prom!!! I can wear beautiful clothes, get together with my friends, laugh and play with them!! Although I have the kind of dress that i wanna wear in mind, but I dunno if i can find it. And plus I will be a bit zi bei with my friends. But! I cannot feel zibei! I must have confidence! Hui Tien, you do not have anything to do with low self-esteem!!! You have already been cured from this illness!!! I will and must be confident :D

Man was designed for accomplishment, engineered for success, and endowed with the seeds of greatness. - Zig Ziglar

TTFN:D

2007-07-14T16:48:00.000+08:00

look at this one.. you'll find out y :D

Sam, you will sure like this video :D

2007-07-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

im so into her songs!!! :D

Humans have the remarkable ability to get exactly what they must have.But there is a difference between a "must" and "want."
Jim Rohn

2007-07-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

why are there only 2 ppl who did my test??? *sob sob* *pout* can my clique do my test... i wanna noe how much u noe me... hehe pls pls the others who wanna do can go ahead and do. you don have to be my clique to do the test :) Oh! and im so surprised yuhan was the first to do my test. Haha... I thought she wouldn't do cos she cant use her com... :) Let's see who can score hundred. hehe :)

"Kindness in words creates confidence Kindness in thinking creates profoundness Kindness in giving creates love." Lao-Tzu

2007-07-02T02:23:00.000+08:00

i found this song and now im in love with it!!!

hehehe

2007-06-28T15:44:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

ncie nice!!

2007-06-20T03:37:00.000+08:00

I love the ending!!!!

I wanna learn tap dance and modern dance too!!

"Fight one more round. When your arms are so tired that you can hardly lift your hands to come on guard, fight one more round. When your nose is bleeding and your eyes are black and you are so tired that you wish your opponent would crack you one on the jaw and put you to sleep, fight one more round – remembering that the man who always fights one more round is never whipped." James Corbett

excited

2007-06-19T23:49:00.001+08:00

Im going out with wong tmr!! Haha! Im so excited!! This is the first time Im going out with her. Wonder how would it be like. Anyways, we're going to chinatown and marina square. I dont noe how much shld I bring tmr. Shld I bring more for shopping?? Or shld I just bring a little for lunch?? Hmm... I think I'll decide tmr. Hehe. But I'll need to wake up early tmr and I can only sleep at abt 3+. Shit!! Haha nvm la. I can sure wake up because Im going out to shop. Hahaha!! Sis just came back. So TTFN, I need to go and ask her abt everything that happened in Taiwan. :)

bored

2007-06-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

sis went to taiwan yesterday. bro went to my mum's shop today. argh!!! im so bored at home today. but big sis just came back so not that bored. haha. second sis will only come back next tue.
oh oh! i bought a new perfume in a shop called perfumes and cosmetics at the airport. one costs 64, 2 cost 115. so i bought 2. wahahaha!! love daddy!! brand of the perfume is givenchy. it also comes with a free necklace:)

nothing really special happened during my audition. but the judge(i think) asked me if i stay ard
tjc. i said no cos i think tampines is quite far away from tjc. i den told the judge that i stay in
tampines. he replied, "oh tampines is also counted as near to tjc." all the other tjc students laughed
omg! so embarrassing! haha!

"The shorter way to do many things is to do only one thing at a time."
Mozart

busy busy busy

2007-06-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

For the past 2 days, I've been busy doing the paperwork for the application of DSA into TJC. Phew! finally finished it. Haha... I'll be going for my audition tmr with indra :) wish us luck! :) I've already decided the song that I wanna play. It's called Feng Shou Luo Gu. Wahahahah!!! Im gonna play it well and make an impression on the invigillator!!! I know I can and I will do it :) Oh Oh!! Sam's gonna apply for the DSA into TJC too!! Good luck Sam!! :) You can do it de!! :) Try might also be applying for the DSA but not very confirmed yet. Anyways, it's no harm applying for the DSA :) Jia You Jia You!!! :):):)

*A little bit more to go*

:)

2007-06-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

I have already started to let go... I think it will leave me alone after a few days or weeks. I feel that I made the right choice :) Everybody, give me your support!!! :) There's one thing that i wish to do... I wish get that thing back. But I've already given, so I cant take it back... I wanna take it back because I feel that I'm really foolish to chose that. Aiya give le cannot take back... So dont think too much :)

2007-06-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

How I wish I can cry in front of my friends... How I wish someone will give me some advice... How I wish someone would go for a walk with me at the beach... How I wish there is a shoulder for me to lie on... How I wish none of that would happen... How I wish I can have good night's rest... How I wish I do not have so many things to think of when I'm lying down preparing to go to bed... How I wish I can sleep the whole day and forget abt all my troubles...

I know all these are just not gonna happen. Should I take the initiative?? Damn! I feel like crying again. Useless me... only know how to cry... Shld I just let go of it?? Mayb I cant even bear to let go of it... When can it leave me?? After the Os?? How I wish it can leave me before the Os... Shld I throw away the thing?? I want to.. But I cant bear to throw it away...

*Leave me alone*

Michael Jackson

2007-06-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

he is my IDOL!!!!!!!

2007-05-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

I think Im really going crazy!!! I dreamt of him for 3 CONSECUTIVE days!!! OMG!!! "Suo wei ri you suo si ye you suo meng" am I thinking too much?!?!? Damn! He didn't come to sch for 1 day and Im like some zombie, no energy to listen in class!!!

Another thing: Im a damn useless person!!! Give someone a call isn't that hard but i just cant do it!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!

*Dont Know What's happening to me*

^^

2007-05-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

"I am always doing things I can't do, that's how I get to do them." Pablo Picasso

I like this qoute a lot. I feel that the only way to accomplish something you cant do, is to keep doing working on it. It works for everything. For studies, work, cooking, etc. So, whenever you think you cant do something, think of this quote. Cos nobody cant accomplish something. It's whether you're willing to do it or not.

*I miss you*